Never Make Someone A Priority, When They Only Make You An Option.

Tonight, I'm a grump.

I hate not being able to sleep. At times, I can easily pinpoint the exact reason as to why I'm having trouble "letting down", while other times, I draw a blank. At least for tonight, I think I know.

I'm dissapointed. In a lot of different people, for a lot of different things. Tonight, I just feel like a wall has fallen on me and even though I know I'm strong enough to move, I feel paralyzed. Maybe I ask too much. Maybe I think, for just this one time, things will be or end differently. Maybe, after all of the fighting, I'm wrong. Maybe all of this, isn't worth fighting for, at all.

My mom says that sometimes I see "inside" of people and am able to identify a humanistic aspect, that I become indebted to. I need to stop this. Every situation always seems to end poorly.

Sometimes, I really wish for the "Old" Harmony. The younger, shy, chubbier girl...someone who if, at that time, could've seen the way things have ended now; would've done anything to avoid some of the decisions that she would eventually make.

Ya live, Ya Learn.

Goodnight.