Shawty is a Killah.

In the weeks leading up to now, it's been an interesting "road". I've come to realize that the simplest of things have been what I have needed and wanted, to retain. I have been able to identify that the people that are truly important to me, bring me so much satisfaction. When it comes down to it, I cherish the handful of family and friends I have in my life. I would easily take a real conversation, an immensely long walk in the rain, or even a perfect moment where nothing, at all needs to be stated...over anything else I could be presented with. Again, I've realized it's the simple things that make me so thankful. I am truly lucky.

There are so many things I want to accomplish in this upcoming year. I'm excited for new avenues that I have been presented with, as well as goals that I want to bring to fruition. For starters, I want to try and be a better person. In small ways. I have an idea that kindness might be the answer to everything. So I plan to make this my ethos for 2009. Being kind in small ways. Not getting walked over, at all, just being nice for no other reason than it's nice to be nice.

I want to avoid the same old mistakes, particularly when it comes to relationships. I would rather be on my own than repeat patterns. That being said, I've decided that I will not cloud or conceal my feelings, either with people or situations. Basically, it hurts too much. I want to learn to say what I mean and mean what I say. I've noticed that when times get tough, it's easy to feel lost and alone. I am lucky enough to have someone that has always been there. Even though, sometimes, I know it must be hard for him to put up with my "girl-shit". He has always been a "rock" for me. His character is strong beyond measure and his support has always made me feel strong. I am lucky to have him. He is indeed, "baller status". haha.

I want to be more creative in all kinds of ways. Cooking. Making. Writing. Being artistic. Explore ideas. Collaborate with creative people. By this time, next year, I hope to have my business up and running. :) Everyone deserves to do something that they love and I believe I've found my passion.

I want to walk more. Walk, walk, walk. Walk with friends. Get out and breathe fresh air.

I've stopped drinking soda. I live by water and the occasional green tea or coffee. I've never felt better. What started out as a "bet", has turned out to be one of the best decisions I've made.

I feel like 2009 is the year for building on everything that I already have. Learning more French and taking advantage of having my grandmother teach me the last little bit of Japanese. Rediscovering my connection with my horse, Rocco, because I regret the time I didn't spend with Hugo. Nurturing my friendships. Exploring my creativity. Digging in some roots, wherever that may be.

Enjoying it all.